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i am now eighteen , i made a trip to shambhala and calgary AB ,
both were completely unique and beautiful in their own ways .

i'm now home again .
i've met someone who is suited well for me ,
his name is ashton ,
he appears in many of my works .
he is possibly the best subject i've ever encountered .
completely photogenic and comfortable before the lens .

ashton is a sacred soul:
sensitive and strong
headstrong and yet so open
caring and forgiving
unique and trustworthy
honest and beautiful
spiritual and logical
real and surreal

he is moving here in five days ,
and in 10 days we are moving below a kilt wearing business man's and a gardener's home .

i work at a gigantic 'factory' ,
i am just a piece of a machine .
going crazy , fake smiles , fake conversations .
but i make enough money as if i work a full time job ,
and i only work 22 hour weeks .
(selling your soul feels good )

lost 15-20 pounds ,
bought a bike ,

and now it is fall here in victoria british columbia .

beautiful changes .

the only thing that stays the same is the loneliness we all feel ,
the need to be one with someone or everyone else .
the trick is that we already are all beautifully unified already .